Monday, April 28, 2014

We need never be ashamed of our tears

“Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts. I was better after I had cried, than before - more sorry, more aware of my own ingratitude, more gentle.”
- Charles Dickens

Siegfried and Alice Peltesohn were listed for decades in Yad Vashem's list of Jews murdered during Shoah. Now they are removed and will soon join the Hall of Names' list of Survivors.

I will fully admit to having cried in the middle of Kinkos when the employee handed me the printed photos. And again looking at the pages together. And again at Starbucks. And again right now as I write this. I'm just So. Damn. Happy. This is one of the best-feeling, most personally satisfying things I've ever done. I know it's just two people compared to millions who died, but for me it feels like I, one single person, have issued a massive "FUCK YOU!" to the Germans and stolen my great-grandparents back from them.

There's a moment in Doctor Who where the Doctor, fighting to save the life of a single child, screams in desperation to the universe "Give me a day like this! Give me this one!" I got that day.

Siegfried Peltesohn

Alice Peltesohn

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Dr. Siegfried Peltesohn, Part 2

Before starting in on part 2 of my biography of my great-grampa, Dr. Siegfried Peltesohn, I encourage anyone who hasn't already done so the read my entry on Theresienstadt. The history is very important for understanding a number of the events that take place in the following narrative.


From its very beginning, Theresienstadt received a total 649 rail transports of Jews, mostly from large cities such as Berlin, Prague, and Vienna. In looking through the list of deportations, my heart absolutely broke when I read about the Kindertransport that occured after the liquidation of Bialystok Ghetto; the 1,196 children and 53 adult caretakers passed through Theresienstadt on their way to their murder at Auschwitz. While I am... utterly horrified by the fact that there is a website called ExecutedToday.com, the description they have of this event is the most thorough I've found. And it's awful. Absolutely, completely, and in every way a horrifying example of the depravity that it terrifies me to know that humans are capable of.

But I digress.

Before they were deported my GGM sent weekly letters to her daughter, my gramma, in New York, reporting on the deteriorating situation in Berlin and their attempts to secure passage to the United States. Unfortunately, this never happened. Due to his being a decorated WWI veteran, my GGP, along with my GGM, was deported on Transport I/90 that left Berlin on 18 March, 1943, and arrived at Theresienstadt (located in what is now the Czech Republic) the next day. The information I've found indicates that they were listed as prisoners 11968 and 11969, respectively; I'd originally thought that these numbers might have been tattooed on their arms, but the tattooing system was only used to identify forced laborers at Auschwitz and so my GGM and GGP were spared at least this inhumanity.

(For anyone unfamiliar with the process, the original tattoos were done by slamming a metal stamp into the prisoner's flesh and then rubbing ink into the bleeding wound. I cringe to think of the agony. Later on they switched to using a single needle tattoo machine that was probably not unlike this 1940 American model. I'm tattooed (1, 2, 3), and... They hurt. A lot. Sure, some areas are not as bad as others, but they're still painful for someone in their 20's/30's, and the idea of one being crudely inflicted on someone in his mid-60's is... I'm glad they didn't have to endure that on top of everything else.)

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Kitler

Almost finished with part 2 of my great-grandfather's biography; I've been unwell recently and was unable to work on it for a while.

In the mean time, enjoy a Kitler.

Kitler
Sich Meow!